2011.

Entry ini sekadar untuk menceritakan tentang kehidupan aku di tahun 2011.

Particularly, nothing much I can say about my 'January till April moments' because sincerely, I don't love it. Sepanjang waktu tu, aku langsung tak blogging. Neurons otak aku penuh dengan assignments & tests (which I don't know whether the neurons were connected or not) sampai aku rasa aku patut buat tarian gemuk depan faculty biar 'diorang' taw betapa stressnya aku nak layan dugaan. Hurmmmm, kalau 'diorang' taw aku tengah super duper serabut mesti diorang tak sampai hati nak buat aku sedih kan? Siapakah 'diorang'? Nobody, maybe it just a bunch of people or collection of memories, please don't assume :) Tapi, kalau nak cakap hidup aku time tu 100% sucks pon tak leh gak. Sebab macam biasa, setiap kali ada masalah aku akan pulang kepada mereka yang aku sayangi & menyayangi aku. Bagi aku, itulah rahsia kebahagian. Kegembiraan aku yang paling nyata untuk empat bulan pertama tahun 2011 bila aku sekeluarga bercuti ke Pulau Besar. Terasa comel bila masing-masing memekak pastu tergelak macam batak sebab tidur berhimpit-himpit atas satu katil sampai terteleng-teleng. Seram sejuk okay, kena himpit dengan Anis & Ika. Tapi rasanya, lagi horror cerita ayah tentang pengalaman dia menuntut ilmu silat kat Pulau Besar. For real, Ayah pernah jumpa penghulu kampung bunian. Peh, siap borak-borak. Masa kitorang jalan-jalan satu pulau, Ayah tunjukkan semua tempat-tempat yang Ayah pernah lepak termasuklah tempat-tempat makhluk halus selalu berkumpul. Nasib baik instinct aku tentang alam ghaib dah takde (I will talk about this later) so Alhamdulillah takde pape perkara buruk yang terjadi sepanjang dua hari. Paling syok mandi swimming pool sebab bila empat budak 'gebu' berlari, melompat, & terjun masuk kolam, air splash besar tak hingat. HEHE. InsyaAllah, we will plan for another vacation :)

Dan sekarang, cuti semester dah bermula. Secara rasmi, dah 11 hari di rumah menikmati dunia. Aku siap text dalam phone ape yang aku buat start dari hari pertama cuti sampai lah ke hari ni. Aku betul-betul nak hargai ape yang aku sedang lalui sekarang. Aku akan buat segala macam perkara dan dapatkan segala macam benda yang aku suka & mahu. This is because Roslaneffandy had told me his way of life: do things that you love. Yeah Lovie, I want to follow your rule!

Dengan ini saya berikrar.

Sepanjang hayat ini akan.

Merancang kehidupan dengan baik.

Chill dengan perkara, benda, dan orang yang saya cinta.

Melaksanakan perancangan yang sudah tetapkan.

Chill dengan perkara, benda, dan orang yang saya cinta.

(Plan the action, chill & wait for the perfect time, act the plan, chill & wait for the perfect result)

Saya juga berikrar.
Sepanjang cuti sem ini akan.
Tidak bermatakan panda.
Makan makanan yang marvelous.
Dancing tarian gemuk.
Menonton movie sampai kecut.
Baca buku tambah vocab.
Menjadi seorang gamer yang tegar lagi sejati seperti Roslaneffandy.
Try new outfit.
Explore new things.
Travel for experience.
Spend quality time with family and friends.
Carik duit dan pelaburan untuk masa depan.

Berikrar sambil berdiri tegak.

Planning Gives Me Hopes.

There are many things I wish to do before I die. Some may sound ridiculous and the rest may look typical but eventually, I don't care. I just want to plan. Like wise man used to say that you should see life more than just a life. Essentially, this is what I'm trying to get into. Only certain people know that at one time, I had suffered from destination addict. I tried so hard to reach the goal till I missed the anecdote of the path. Supposedly, I need to suck up an effort to make it heaven or bloody hell but unfortunately I didn't opt one of the options. Like the other, I have my disenchantment. In that point, I'm pretty sure that it caused my major injury. I know I shouldn't. I just let it be as far as I started to realize that this is not me. Hence, I changed to my old version. Blame the surrounding is not cool like I used to be when I loose the ticket to become a lawyer. Now I had successfully completed my Degree and I'm glad that I have my life back before I shoot the target. Basically, I believe that when you see life more than just a life you should see life before and after death. Dear Allah, please give me the chance to contribute to your chattels because seriously I want it so bad. But first, allows me to protect my family. Only You can gives me the opportunities. Back into my plan, I desire to read as much as I could in the view that I can attain something from the author's writing. Hopefully I can start from the novel er, can I have any suggestion? HAHA. Poor me. I'm also seeking for the great movie to be watched. Believe me, I missed many blockbuster movie that sustained widespread popularity and achieved enormous sales during my lifetime. I think Twilight is my worst. In addition since I was a kid, I always has the delusion of a green hill covered with the wave of flowers blow by the wind. It will be my pleasure to lay down on the ground while looking after the clouds. I love clouds and I don't have explanation on that. It has become a fact. Besides, I want to get my black belt. I end up with brown because I quit Taekwando after my finger fractured during the competition. You don't know how much I get excited when I watched Karate Kid because I have the thought that I can relate to the passion of Xiao Dre. In basis, I only listed five but the truth is I have many more. However those five things is what I always want to. It is okay if I can't make it because Allah knows what is the best for me. I only got the plan but He produce the result. I'm only endeavor. This gives me hopes.

Plan gives you hopes and ways.

Masa Depan.

Jam menunjukkan pukul 4.33 pagi. Terasa cool sebab masih tak tidur lagi ala-ala remaja aktif. Ceh, mentang-mentang cuti. Masa belajar dulu, dan dan je masuk tidur awal, nak rehat secukupnya sebab besok ada kelas. Tapi dah la bangun lewat, masuk kelas pun lewat. Nampaknya, sampai sekarang, tak berubah-ubah la kamu pengelat :) Actually, waktu-waktu sengang macam ni, buat otak aku ligat, fikirkan masa depan. In basis, at one time, I do have fixed plan for my ambiguous future. Unfortunately, it always need to be restructred. Sebab? rezeki tak menyebelahi. Tapi takpe, Roslaneffandy cakap, orang berjaya, takkan mudah putus asa. Ya, you are right, Bobby! You are right!

So, apa yang aku cari dalam hidup? Keredhaan Allah is a must. Aku sedang berusaha untuk menjadi hamba Tuhan ku yang sejati. Instead of that I'm looking for the best path to lead me into assets and prosperities. However, don't point me as a type of material. It just that before I has a ring on my finger, I'm craving :

1) To complete my master (PHD would be nice too)

2) To have 'my-name-on' assets

3) To have lotsa money so that I can tell my family "Sayang, just buy anything, I pay for it"

Note : Semuanya kerana family ku sayang (Mak, Ayah, Ika, Annis, & Adik). Juga untuk new-born family.